my contrax are close together and getting kind of long, so the dr has said to go to the hospital. mainly because of the strep b, and he wants me on the antibiotic sooner rather than later.
PRAY FOR US!!!!!!!!! pray it is a fast delivery – not like the other two!!!
will update when we can! 
sorry – we spent a long time at the mall! ended up getting talked into get the boys’ pics taken at picture people (i will have those scanned to show you soon!).
ok here’s the run down – high 80-90% effaced – very soft and thin, 2-3 cm dilated. he said jamin is probably about 7lbs 6-8oz. he said he doubts he’ll see me on next wednesday. 
i’m going to see how fast i can scan these so i can get to nap!!!
oh look, i don’t have to scan them – here’s my album!
we got numbers 1 (free), 7 and 9.
i will be 38 weeks tomorrow. i have a dr’s check-up today at 11. i’ve been having quite a few contrax this morning – some of them close together, some of them long. some of them i was not able to sleep through!
i’m hoping he’ll check me and go ahead and send me to the hospital. LOL. but you know how that kind of hoping never works out. (but i wouldn’t mind if you prayed about it!!)
know what’s crazy (off-topic)? i have been calling around everywhere (regular stores with bakeries) and no one does veggie tales cakes!! i wanted to make sure i have a back-up plan. but now i have to make the cake myself, no matter what. unless i’m in labor, then it will probably be a generic one that we slap his name on or something. 
just wanted to check in before i got ready to go.
well the portrait session is over! i can’t say it went well, but the end results were pretty good. i bought more sheets than i’ve ever bought anywhere! lol. i got the online version, but for some reason they aren’t up yet. crazy thing is, it says it may take up to 14 business days to see them online. UM HELLO, the photos will be in on the 18th! crazy crazy. i just wanted to show you guys! we got one of the family (it was hard to get!), several of jerry, me and belly, one of the boys together, and two of josiah (for his 2 year pics). i will post them as soon as they show up on the smiles site.
anyway, what didn’t go so well, you wonder? josiah was at first in a very good mood. jerry came separately, so we decided to do josiah’s two year pics first. well, he was happy, but not cooperative! he kept moving as soon as the girl was done posing him. part of it was her fault – people need to know that kids move fast and they need to take the shot when you can!! sigh. then when jerry got there, josiah and jeremiah were both grumpy (i think poor jeremiah was feeling left out that he didn’t get any pics alone now i wish we’d at least taken one of him by himself, even if we didn’t buy it, ya know?) and not very cooperative for the family pics. while jerry and i changed shirts, they started on the just boys pics. josiah was NOT happy. the lady finally got him to smile, and the pic of them is really cute, even tho jeremiah is slumping LOL. the part with just jerry and me went fine – it felt so strange tho. the poses were awkward a lot of the time. but most of them turned out really cute! i really am annoyed i can’t show you yet!
it felt so great to see so many old “faces” on here last night! i’ve missed hearing from you.
today, contraction-wise, was pretty slow. i have had quite a few throughout the day – some were even really hard, but not close together at all. the biggest change i am noticing is my hormone levels. oh my goodness i am just a mess, nearly all the time right now. i’m trying to figure out if i went into psycho overdrive near the boys’ births! wed. is my next check-up, so i’m going to make sure to ask him: how big jamin is, what i’m effaced, of course what i’m dilated. i’m also going to take him my birth plan, and ask him, if he’s not delivering anywhere at the time, which hospital would he prefer i go to? i know i would like to go to johnson or community if it’s up to me…st francis (where i had both big boys) is ok but now they have so many extra rules – you can’t take laptops in there for one. i’d really like to go to a new hospital so i can see how things compare. i am pre-registering at community online.
i think that’s it for now…please keep the prayers up! i actually felt a LITTLE better today physically – so i think you were praying for me. thanks!!!
i’m pretty disappointed today. yesterday i really thought something was going to happen! i had MANY MANY contrax, and some of them were pretty close together, and two of them were majorly painful and intense.
amanda g and i went to mexican and then to the mall to walk last night, hoping to help move things along. alas, you couldn’t tell today! i’ve hardly had any contrax at all today. i’ve still had a lot of pressure down there, but nothing seems productive. harumph! oh well – tomorrow are those preggo pics i’ve been waiting to get taken, so maybe that’s what God and baby are waiting for.
this week jeremiah has been my big helper! he even helped me make supper on thursday night! he washed the potatoes, helped me poke holes in them, and put them in the oven for me. he poured water into the chicken pan, and poured bbq sauce on the chicken. isn’t he wonderful? *love*
i can’t believe josiah will be two in a week! aaaahhh! where has that time gone?! he is such a sweet boy, who loves his mama, papa and brudder so much! he loves his baby brudder too – he still loves to talk to, rub, and kiss baby jamin through my belly lol. we still need to get his gifts…and i’m wondering if i’ll chicken out and have mom pick up a cake for us…i’m just feeling so icky lately.
here is the invitation i made (the party is family-only, so i really didn’t need to make an invite lol, but i wanted to!):
in the first pic, josiah is saying “two” in response to me asking him how old he’ll be on his birthday. in the second pic, jeremiah is tickling josiah’s feet. LOL. josiah has the biggest, most beautiful smile, and his eyes are just so deep and gorgeous, but for some reason he hasn’t wanted to be good for pics lately. i’m hoping he does well tomorrow – i want at least one pic of him alone, so it can maybe count as a birthday photo.
oh i forgot to mention this, but in two out of the three hospitals that are on our list (the dr delivers at three, remember), laptops are allowed! so mom will be able to take her laptop and we can update to our heart’s content on all the jamin gossip.
well we are getting ready to go to church, so i’ll write soon. i really hope i hear from some people soon…it’s getting really sad to see only a few people comment anymore. i remember how many comments jeremiah and even josiah had for their births, and it breaks my heart that jamin may not have even ten. sniffle. hormones maybe?
i’m 37 weeks tomorrow. i had my appointment today. i’m 175 1/2 lbs. my cervix is soft and i’m at 2cm. jamin’s head is down. i am pos for strep b again. the dr said i won’t make it to 40 weeks. i asked him when he thought and he said within the next two weeks.
so i am supposed to pack my bag.
i’m trying not to get TOO excited about it…but it’s hard not to.
ETA: what should i pack? i forget!
i am 36 weeks today. wow. you would not beLIEVE how ready i am. i have been so sore (ligaments, muscles, joints) and have been having BH all the time. they are getting stronger too. i am always constipated (TMI) and having the wonderful thing that goes along with that. sometimes i’m starving, other times i have to remind myself to eat. i am moodier than someone with bi-polar. i want to be normal again! the only thing is, the past two times, my post-partum hormones were even worse than my pregnancy hormones! so not a lot to look forward to there…i want to meet jamin so much!
we really don’t have a lot to do…i guess i should wash the tiny things. i don’t have a coming home outfit – i’m not completely sure if SIL will be getting it or not – she bought the big boys’ coming home outfits, so i think she’ll get his too? but i don’t know for sure. my belly is getting so huge! the boys are so sweet talking to jamin all the time…they always want to rub and kiss my belly and talk to him. it’s precious!
but about josiah. the boy is going to send me to the nut house. i honestly do love his energy. i do. but i wish he would LISTEN to me! i can’t really expect a two year old to have what we call “common sense” but sometimes i do expect it, and it drives me nuts.
ok, sunday we went to a new church (it was wonderful btw – more later) and after church, the boys had me chasing them all over the church’s huge yard. i was so tired and couldn’t move anymore so i asked mom to get josiah when he went off again. well, the lady she was talking with wouldn’t stop talking. so he’s over at the side of the church. jeremiah says “josiah ate these berries!” holding some berries up. NO ONE at the church knew what kind of bush it was. we also didn’t know how many he’d eaten. we got the number for poison hotline. they said we needed to find out what kind of bush it was. we had already taken a sample branch and some berries, in case we’d need it (at the hospital or whatever). the person on the hotline said to find a nursery. so we went looking for a nursery…we finally found one, and they told us what the bush was (it was a coton easter btw) and we called the poison control back. they said that YES it is poisonous, but you have to eat LOTS of the seeds, crushed, in order to cause any real damage. she said to keep a close eye on him and make sure he doesn’t vomit or get a headache. he seemed his normal self afterwards, so we were very thankful to have beat that hurdle. shew.
i believe it was tuesday when the boys came out front with me, to talk to the next door neighbor little girl. josiah followed her down the sidewalk on her scooter. i told him to come back. he started to, then he turned the other way and ran into the street. i said STOP (which almost always stopped jeremiah in his tracks) and he continued to run from me. here i am 35.5 weeks pregnant, running after my son. i was not fast and it was not fun. he got a spanking when we got home, and he was upset, but obviously he did NOT get the message. just tonight, we went to get the mail, and when i said STOP he ran more. a car came around the corner, and thankfully saw him. if it had been a teenager, ripping around that corner like they always do, josiah might be gone. it is very upsetting and i’m tearing up again just thinking about it. i can’t imagine not having him with me. i don’t know what to do, besides not let him out front unless he is holding our hands at all times. so i’m just not letting him out front at all if i’m alone. i don’t have the strength or energy to chase him if he gets away.
pray with me that jamin will be calmer.
any thoughts when jamin will come? i was thinking late, but now i don’t know…i just feel so ready…
about the new church. it’s in the next town, so we had never considered it. but it’s a nice-sized church (pretty small) with VERY friendly people. i mean, the people are SO NICE. i can’t remember being in a church where EVERYONE i passed said hi to me!! the boys liked it in their classes too. and we got compliments on josiah’s intelligence. (i’m sure we would have from jeremiah’s teacher, but she seemed a bit frazzled to me.) the sermon was really good – nothing in opposition from what we believe. we went back for the sunday night program – they have sunday school at night – and jerry was able to go. and jerry really liked what he saw too. he said he is going to have to go in the mornings, without sleep, and then crash when we get home, and go to church later. he said it will be a sacrifice, but the plan was to get to church. SO. hopefully we have found a church home! i have missed church SOOOO much. please pray for us about it.
well that’s about it for now…i really miss everyone so much! i hope everyone is well.
here is a little thing i fill out at one of the forums i go to:
Remind us how far along please!
i am 35 weeks today!!!
How are you feeling?
fine but TIRED. READY to meet him!
Biggest complaint?
pure exhaustion!
Biggest joy?
when the boys give my belly kisses and talk to their baby brother 
Most comfortable outfit?
size large maternity pants, size large maternity shirts
When is your next doctor appt? Any US’s?
i had one yesterday, next one’s in two weeks. no more us
Favorite activity right now?
sleeping. LOL. making digiscrap pages!
Have you made any kind of birth plan?
no, i keep meaning to re-look jeremiah’s birth plan up.
Feeling movement? How often? What makes baby move the most?
oh my goodness when does the boy NOT move?! he is awake more than he’s asleep – kicking me, head-butting me, elbowing me, whatever else he wants to do. my internal organs should be bruised.
Anything you are nervous about? Excited about?
actually, i have seen some scary things lately. a college friend died of delivery complications, the movie jersey girl, others i know from online having serious complications…before this i thought everything would go just fine, like with jeremiah and josiah….but the odds are something could happen, and it scares me.
What are you looking forward to the most?
meeting my precious jamin – holding him close, nursing him, seeing jerry with him, letting him meet his big brothers…deciding who he looks like! lol
Boy/girl/names? jamin zachariah
How are you sleeping?
once i’m asleep i’m fine, but i have to get up a lot to potty. 
i am really uncomfortable – my legs and hip joints are really sore/loose.
Any showers coming up?
i don’t think i’m getting one.
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i had to take my own pics again, and this is the only one i like ok lol. (side note: i was wearing my nice black pants just for the pics. lol. jeremiah and josiah were saying how pretty i looked – then i changed back to regular loafer clothes and jeremiah said “not so pretty now” – can you believe that? lol!)
i am TIRED and EXHAUSTED and SORE and ready to meet my baby!!!
i am doing great bp-wise, weight-wise (172), and on all fronts. dr says jamin could come at any time and be fine (though we’re praying he’ll cook a bit longer!) he checked me, because i told him i’ve been having braxton hicks really often. he wanted to make sure they weren’t real contractions. he said i was still closed and soft. but that once jamin decides it’s time to come out, there will be no stopping him (i was mentally reminded of josiah knock-knock-knocking, ready to come out in the delivery room LOL).
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i am getting so sick of myself. i have SO little patience with the boys lately. they disobey and it drives me insane. i want to nip it in the bud but have no energy to do so! so i just get mad at them. please pray for us on that, too.
BELLY COMPARE!!! jeremiah, josiah and jamin, all at 35 weeks:
only six weeks to go!!! yippeeeee!! so who thinks he’ll be here early? who thinks he’ll be on time? who thinks he’ll be late? it’s not quite time for a final poll, but it’s fun guessing…i think he’ll be late still. september 1. just a feeling…
josiah is 23 months today. he will be TWO YEARS OLD next month!!! wahh!!! since it’s an off-birthday (we are only planning “big” birthdays for certain ages) we will only be celebrating with family. still, i want to TRY to make him a cake or cupcakes that he’ll really like. i’m not sure if we’ll go anywhere or just do it here or at my mom’s.
josiah is so much fun to listen to. he has the cutest little voice, and the way he says things is just so darling.
tow-mater – toemayah
lightning mcqueen – lighting muhkeen
ramon – tamone
buzz lightyear – buss lighyah
woody – wooyee
and he is soooo sweet. lately though he has been showing two year old tantrums! man he can throw some biggies!! his will is going to be a hard one to tame. but the funny thing is, he’s a lot like me – he becomes repentant really quickly and honestly feels badly about his behaviour. so that’s a good thing….and like i said, he really is sooo sweet. he loves his mama and papa and his big bubby. he is really a mama’s boy – and jerry would admit it. he loves jerry to no end, but if he had to choose he chooses mama. 
jeremiah was the opposite most of the time at this age lol. so it’s kinda nice.
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the day before yesterday jerry was reading a bible story book to jeremiah. he read of the story about paul. yesterday morning, during breakfast, jeremiah came over to me and said, out of the blue “mama, there was this guy, his name was saul, and then he got good, and changed his name to paul!” lol!!! i told him that GOD changed his name to paul, because he wasn’t going to be bad anymore, he was going to follow God and be good. isn’t he a doll? it’s time for us to start memorizing verses with him.
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wow i’m 33 weeks. it does seem to be going pretty quickly! i have been getting braxton hicks the last couple of days. and heartburn. ugh.
at my dr’s appt on monday, i weighed 171, my fundal height was 31 and everything was normal. he wrote me a new script for lexapro. i’m still every two weeks – when does it turn to weekly visits?
yesterday jamin was dancing around and i asked the boys if they wanted to feel it. i lifted up my shirt for them, and jeremiah said “wow that’s a hoomungus belly” (he has been calling me a hoomungus mama too *rolls eyes*.) i said it’s gotta be that big because jamin is growing in there and takes up a lot of space. then he said thoughtfully “i want to go in there so i can see him!” i told him that once you are out, can never get back in. lol. he was disappointed. later gramma and grampa told him there’s no way he would want to be in there, because he was too big. there’s no room.
jerry trimmed the boys’ hair today. they look so cute! they get so scruffy-looking when their sideburns go over their ears lol.
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