a big day. josiah’s due date. jamin’s due date. and what i assumed would be janoah’s due date. even though we still assume there was no baby in the sac….my heart still mourns for that pregnancy. the baby i thought was there. just in case we were wrong, and there was a baby….i still want to remember her. to let her know i love her still. happy due date, precious one.

ok i’m 33 weeks now, and am finally at my pre-pregnancy weight. is that a little odd to anyone else? i tell you what, after jace is born, i’m really going to work hard to be at a healthy weight. i can hardly wait for my body to be “normal” again - i’m in so much pain all over that just walking is torture. i hope my body heals quickly so i can exercise some.

i am sooooo ready to meet jace!! he is a little monkey, like his brother josiah, i think. i can already tell by his personality inside he’ll give joe a run for his money. LOL. look out world, here he comes!

any guesses on when he’ll arrive? his due date is october 10, but josiah was 12 days early and jamin was 15 days early. my guess is sept. 29.

i have a dr’s appointment today. i need to ask him if it is safe to up my anti-depressants. i have had some real doozies of mood swings lately. plus i haven’t been wanting to eat unless it’s something i’m REALLY craving. there have been a few days that i hardly ate anything at all because nothing sounded good. i’m pretty sure that’s a symptom of my depression.

please continue to pray for our family! love you guys!

that little baby with chubby cheeks is now a big four year old boy with chubby cheeks! that ornery little monkey is now a bigger ornery monkey!

josiah, you are such an amazing little guy. i doubt there’s ever been another child anything like you in the history of the world. you can have us angry one minute and laughing the next. you can have us teary-eyed because you’re so adorable and sweet. you are just a wonderful little package and we love you so much! every day is an adventure with you as a son.

happy birthday, sweet monkey boy! we love you sooo much!

i had my appt. on monday and things looked ok. i was a bit annoyed with the dr, because i had to ask him about the gestational diabetes test. “oh you haven’t had that yet?” um nooooo. and i had to remind him that i had GD with josiah but not jamin. so i went right over to get the test taken. i decided to go to toys-r-us to see if there was a cute blue shirt for jamin (we were going to picture people after i was done) and i had to sit down four to five times so as not to pass out. i’m hoping that doesn’t mean i have it. i called the office this morning to see if they got the results in yet, but so far i haven’t gotten a call.

jamin was kind of ornery at his photoshoot, but we still ended up with great pics. it’s always hard to pick the free one, and as usual i had to get an extra one. thankfully i had a 20% off coupon. you can check out his photos here and let me know what you think. the slideshow is the best way to view it.

i have really overdone it the past few days! i am so tired and have been feeling absolutely spent! my body feels like i’m at least 75 years old. i got a charlie horse in the morning while in bed on monday, and it STILL HURTS! it was the strangest one i’ve ever had - i could see the muscles twitching. it looked just like my belly when jace is kicking and rolling, only it was in my calf. the strangest thing! and it hurt like crazy. why does it still hurt? what caused that?

going to go get a carseat today, go for birthday icecream (thank you cold stone creamery for birthday coupons!), go pick out toys at toys-r-us (thanks for the 3 dollar card toys-r-us and the money, aunt olga!) and hopefully make it to church tonight!

love to all!!!

UPDATE! i just got a call from my ob’s office: i do NOT have gestational diabetes!!!!!!!!!! thank You, Lord!!!!!

happy birthday to my precious, beautiful, adorable son jamin zachariah!

jamin, there was a time that i wished you were a girl (of course you were still in my belly then!), but there is NO WAY a girl could ever be as wonderful as you are. you are so precious, so sweet, so smart, so adorable, so fun, so amazing, and you are my son! i love you so much and am so thankful for you. you are completely different than your big brothers, but still obviously an integral part of our family. you look up to both your brothers so much, but have been defending yourself a lot more lately, and i love to see that. you are getting sooo big! you still love to snuggle - you are still our snuggle puppy - and papa and i both hope you don’t grow out of that any time soon!

we love you, precious boy! happy birthday, jamin-bug!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am 31 weeks and feeling ready to pop already. i feel like i am going to split down the middle “down there”. jace is so incredibly active that it feels like he’s going to push his way out at any moment! i haven’t had my gestational diabetes test…we’ll see on monday when i’m supposed to take it. i SO HOPE i don’t have it!

jamin has shown some jealousy issues about the baby and anyone in general. when the boys sit with me, he can be on the other side of the room, and come running, squealing “NO NO!!”. one day he hit my belly, and said “no, my mama!” and he also says “NO, I BABY!” to show that no other baby will take his place. hmmmm. i’m hoping he’ll grow out of it by the time jace comes, but i don’t know!