i can’t believe that my little baby jeremiah will be four years old in a few short hours. the thought boggles the mind. he has grown into such a little man! he’s so tall, so smart, so sweet, so fun.
today was full of his sweet, complicated self. there are a few things i need to write down now, before i forget them.
at about 4:00, he came up to me and said “mama, i want you to talk to God for me.” i said, “well, remember you can pray anytime you want. talking to God is exactly what praying is. why don’t you pray first, and then i will!” so he thought that was a good idea. the following will be paraphrased, since my memory is so horrible: “dear Lord, thank You for loving me. thank You for the nice day. i pray that you will make papa have to work only one day a week. i pray for the people at papa’s work. let them be safe, have sweet dreams and a good night. amen.” oh goodness, i almost giggled and cried. what a sweetheart! then it was my turn. i prayed that the Lord would lead us to a job for papa, one that would enable him to be at home with us more. obviously, that was NOT good enugh for him, because he gave me a sideways glance, and told me he was going to pray some more. he went off next to jamin’s swing, to be more private, i guess. now, we don’t do much praying silently (that he knows of LOL) so praying to him is praying aloud. this time, he started out with “dear God, i wish…” i interrupted him that we don’t WISH to God, we PRAY to God, so he changed it, “ok, dear God, i PRAY that papa can only work one day a week so he can be with me and my bubbies more. i pray that everyone is good and nice at his work and that they have sweet dreams. amen.”
oh goodness, i just love that boy. it’s hard to believe he’s going to be four, but at other times, it’s hard to believe he’s ONLY going to be four. he seems so well ahead of his years to me. other times, i see clearly how much of a baby he still is. oh i just love him so!!!
at one point, when i reminded him that he would be four years old tomorrow, he was running around the room. he stopped, mid-run and asked “but will i still be your kid?” *LOL* where on earth did that come from?! “yes, honey, you’ll always be my kid. you’ll be my kid even when you’re all grown up!” that seemed to satisfy him, because he went on running and having fun being all boy.
the theme for the night was definitely how much he missed papa. he kept telling me how hard it was when there’s only one at home. he meant only one adult, because only one adult means there’s only me to cook, only me to clean, only me to hold, read to and play with them. i’m often reminding them “mama is only one person. mama can’t do everything at one time, so i need you to be patient and wait.” he remembers every little thing that’s said to him. *sigh* so anyway, there was a big deal made about how much he missed papa, and i had to sit him down and tell him that, even though we are sad when we can’t have papa with us at all times, talking about and dwelling on that sadness isn’t going to help anything. it will probably make us feel even worse (this is a tip jerry gives me when i’m wallowing. it usually doesn’t help at the time. LOL). he seemed to really take that in, and made up his mind not to talk about it anymore. i was proud of him – he was much better in that than i have been as an adult. *blush*
tonight is very emotional for me. i really didn’t think it would hit me until tomorrow, but it’s really getting me. i’m so happy and so thankful for him. i can’t believe the blessing that he is, what he has been to me and our family. the Lord made him perfectly for us. he still has his ornery moments, but he is an amazingly sweet, smart, wonderful, caring little guy.
here’s an early happy birthday, to you baby! i love you, jeremiah thomas!!!!!!!!!!!!
i’m fixing eggs, bacon and apple oatmeal for breakfast tomorrow, and later, gramma is taking the boys and me to bouncertown. it’s kind of like chuck-e-cheese’s (i still want to call it showbiz!) but has those big bouncer things. we will either eat there or go somewhere afterwards. should be fun!!!
in other news, jamin is now officially in his crib. he’s slept in the pack-n-play the past 3 nights, and jerry moved the p&p downstairs and the crib into our room, so all is “normal”. i guess. LOL. i hope he does great all night long in it!
josiah now has night terrors, just like jeremiah has had. it’s so horrible. the past few nights, each of them has ended up in bed with me. i feel so helpless with things like that. do some parents just ignore the crying? i can’t, even when i need the sleep.
i would like to ask that you pray for my friend amanda and her family. she just lost a family member, someone very dear to her. i don’t want to say more, because i didn’t ask her about it. but please pray. 
God bless you.