Busy Being Blessed

OH.MY.GOODNESS

you would not BELIEVE what just happened in my household in the last hour.

the boys took a nice bath, until both needed to go potty. josiah did really well – went pee on the big toilet a few times. jeremiah, however, has been refusing to use the regular toilet, in leui of his small pot in his room. i told him to just go in the big one because it’s right there! he had an accident (#2) right on the floor. the FAMILY room (carpeted) floor. yeah. jeremiah is bawling because he couldn’t believe it, i’m sure he was also very embarrassed, plus he’d tried to stop it with his hand, so he had it all over his hand.
while this was happening, jamin is getting upset, and starts to cry. it doesn’t take long to escalate into screaming either. so here i am, listening to my baby cry, while i try to clean up my 3 year old’s poop mess, while telling him it’s ok and he just needs to wash his hands really well…josiah is still in the tub playing nicely but i had to tell him to get out so jeremiah’s bottom could be washed thoroughly. making sure he knows not to touch the poop stain on the carpet. he stays in the bathroom with jeremiah and me while i spray jeremiah’s bottom…jeremiah is still a little teary-eyed. then i tell josiah to go into his room and remember not to touch the poopy…what does he do? he uses the end of the towel he’s wearing to try to wipe the poop!!!!!!!!!!!! so i have to spank him for not listening…

jamin is still screaming…boys are naked, and josiah is crying from being spanked.

josiah says he needs to potty, and he wants the big potty. open the door for him, take him in, and he goes pee AND poop on the big toilet! i’m so happy for him. he’s thrilled. finally get the boys dressed, then the normal disobedience occurs for a while…spankings again…

i can finally pick jamin up, so i take him into the boys’ room for story time. then i set up the swing (he’s still content in it, even tho it doesn’t swing) and did prayers, hugs, kisses and water-cup filling…

i am so exhausted now…honestly writing it down you people will all think i blow things out of proportion…but when you’re already a hormonal mess, any little mishap is a huge deal…and i was nearly in angry tears about this one…i especially hate to hear jamin cry, so that made it even worse. my patience is so thin right now it’s transparent, and i hate who i am right now. :( :( :( :( i want to be me again…whoever that is…

please continue in prayer. PLEASE.

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3 Weeks Old

i can’t believe jamin is three weeks old already!! time just flies. it doesn’t seem like it’s been that long…

well we didn’t go for the weight check. i never called, and no one ever called us…i did the weigh me with and without him again, and it came out to about 7.5 lbs.

and i am going to find out what vaccs josiah needs and go to the health dept – mom said shots are free there. fyi – when we went to the appt, it was josiah’s first visit there. the new ped had to get my signature on the release form, then fax it to the old ped. then the old ped had to fax his records to the new ped. while we were at the appt wasn’t enough time for them to do this, because the new ped still didn’t have the records by the time the appt was over. that’s why he didn’t get his vaccs. :(
sorry i haven’t been posting and visiting…i’m still trying to get into the swing of things. i am honestly having some pretty major depression issues…having days that i don’t want to be touched by anyone, or even see anyone. kinda doesn’t work with a newborn and two other lil ones. i hate myself when i’m like that…then there are days that i’m totally detached. i go through the motions but i have no feelings whatsoever. like i don’t feel like i love my husband or my children. no feeling at all there. that is a scary thing. please pray for me. i really don’t want to have to go to a higher dose of anti-depressants…but if this keeps up, i don’t see another option.

i worked on some digiscrapping some yesterday and today…i will post them at the digiscrap blog. i really need to take the pics for jamin’s birth announcement!!

oh before i forget i want to jot this down – i was working on a digiscrap layout yesterday, and jeremiah came over. he just stared at it for a minute. “what do you think?” i asked. stared another minute. “i laugh, i cry.” total deadpan. i burst out laughing – i know he meant “i laughed, i cried” to be a smart aleck…i couldn’t figure out where he’d heard it until today – it’s on harry and his bucket full of dinosaurs. ;)

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He is 6-7!

he is up to 6lbs 7 1/2 oz!!! still not up to birth weight, but pretty good for me! consider that he was 5lbs 15oz from that scale last thursday.

we are pretty upset right now about co-payment tho…we had to pay 20 dollars for his weight check, 20 dollars for josiah’s well-child check-up, and they didn’t even give him his shots…then they want to check jamin’s weight again next week and give josiah his shots next week, meaning another 40. no way!! jerry is REALLY upset, saying he’s going to have to work all these extra hours and he’ll never be able to see the boys…money is really stressing us out… :( i am so upset. please pray for us right now…

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Jamin’s Birth Story…

is up! http://www.blessedmamacreations.com/blog/jamins-birth-story/

we go tomorrow for his weight check – he is still looking pretty scrawny to me. it’s also josiah’s 2 year well-child check-up. he is “behind schedule” on shots, so i’m not looking forward to that!!

we are supplementing a bit more, because of our concern…i want to nurse completely, with no supplements, but i wonder if that might never happen, with any of my babies? as full as i feel, maybe it’s not enough for them? :(

i am officially back in my size 12 pants! i can hardly believe it. i don’t know if i should shoot for pant-size or weight. i would still like to be down to about 125 or 130 if possible…but if i can get to size 10 or 8 i would be thrilled!

the boys sure LOVE their baby brother! it is so precious how much they love him.

we didn’t get hospital pics, so we decided to go to jc penney’s for 1 week portraits. i didn’t think i’d be getting the smiles by wire (didn’t pay for it) but they just sent it to me anyway! yippee!

https://www.smilesbywire.com/home.asp?AC=LTPP0194111507JCPSHR

enter Jennifer Gigowski as the customer name.

:)

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A Lot to Share

well i’m sorry that i still haven’t been up to posting. it seems when i have the time, i don’t have the energy, and vice versa. add to that still being in pain, and having a little one who thinks he needs to nurse ALL THE TIME, and it doesn’t leave me much computer time!

tomorrow (night) jamin will be one week old. can you believe that?? i sure can’t. he is so precious, wonderful and adorable. he truly is a beautiful little boy. he has a sweet and mellow disposition (most of the time LOL). i have been worried for a few days about how much thinner he has looked, and his yellowness has concerned me too. i was sooooo thankful when we went to have his required labs today, that the lactation consultant was there. she gave me the little supplementation kit (the little tiny tube thing) and said that he wasn’t too yellow and that i shouldn’t be worried about it. however, he has lost 10 oz. so he was only 6lbs 2oz. :( that’s a 9% loss, and 10% losses are when they get really concerned. she assured me that it’s not my milk – i have a lot of milk. and his latch seemed to be fine. she just mentioned the cycle some little ones go through, that they are too tired to nurse, so they have no energy, so they are even more tired and nurse even less. the same thing happened with jeremiah, and probably josiah too.

i’m hopeful we can turn it around. nursing every two hours (three hours at night), giving 1/2 an oz of a supplement each time, and putting him in the sun each day…also pumping after every feeding so i keep up production. i think he will be fine. the funny thing is how many poopies and pees he’s having. you wouldn’t think there would be any problems with gaining weight! sigh.

we are supposed to do newborn portraits tomorrow…but i don’t know if we have the money to do so. :( it makes me so sad! we didn’t get them in the hospital because they were much too expensive, so jerry promised we could get some at jc penney’s this week.

speaking of pictures…i finally got them edited and up at winkflash for viewing. http://www.winkflash.com/PHOTO/signin_es.aspx?esf=xptysapxyjr7if0ogzsw8pfmsdl2tm

remember you have to have a winkflash account to view!

please keep praying for us! God bless!

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Just a Quick One

i just wanted to post really quickly that YES we are home (got home late yesterday afternoon) and jamin and i are doing well. he is nursing great. i am going to start feeding him at least every two hours in the day, to make sure he gets all the nourishment he can. i have lots of milk and he’s too sleepy to nurse sometimes, so i’m going to have to force him. he is looking pretty yellow too today, so we are doing sunlight therapy twice a day.

his dark hair is now very blonde. he has light blonde hair all over his body. his brows and lashes are blonde too. sometimes he looks sooo much like jeremiah as a baby. i still think his lips are more like josiah’s tho. he is absolutely beautiful!!

i just haven’t felt well enough down there to sit at the computer for long. mom’s laptop was a pain to use, but at least i could use it lying down LOL.

i promise i will get a birth story up soon…

i also don’t want to forget to note that today is josiah’s second birthday. happy birthday big boy!!! unfortunately, the party was postponed until next sunday because the big boys have been having diarrhea issues, and jeremiah also started vomiting last night. :( poor guys haven’t been eating much. please pray along with us that jamin does not catch whatever this is. he does NOT need to be losing more weight!!

God bless and thanks so much for your friendship!!!

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Pregnancy Portraits!

WOW! i got the link for the pregnancy portraits from monday!!!
please note there ARE some bare belly pics.

https://www.smilesbywire.com/home.asp?AC=LTPP0194111274JCPSHR

enter my name Jennifer Gigowski.

oh and now i’m wondering why i said the birth story is exciting…lol…everyone is so anxious to hear it now! it’s really not EXCITING, it’s just…different?

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Posting a pic

it’s too hard to use this laptop for me! LOL i found a kinda cute pic of JAMIN ZACHARIAH putting it in photobucket, so i thought i’d just go with it.

he is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO precious and adorable. we are in love with him!

birth story is QUITE exciting, but i don’t have the energy for it right now. let me just say – i didn’t have an epidural!!!!!!! i’m so proud of myself!!! i didn’t think i could do it!!!!! but having amanda, jerry and mom here helped!! (jerry made it JUST IN TIME!!!!)

thanks for all the prayers!!!!!

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Welcome to our world.

Jamin Zachariah Gigowski was born last evening at 9:43 pm (I began writing this post after midnight). He is 6 pounds 12 ounces and 20 3/4 inches long. He joined our family 15 days early than expected but he was welcome suprise. He is soooooo beautiful. Jenn and baby are both doing great. We will post all the details of the delivery and photos of Jamin later. Thank you for all your prayers.

-edited by mama = his middle name is Zachariah, NOT Zechariah. ;)

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No Details

I will leave that for mama & papa but wanted you all to know that baby is HERE!!! And all are fine!!! And I got to be there for the birth!!! WOOHOO!!!

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