i am not deleting anyone, especially old, dear friends.
having two children now i am more forgiving about people commenting. i am really thankful that those of you who still come have followed me from…hmmm how many times have i moved? LOL…several different blog urls. you have gone through password changes galore, and you are still diligent to check up on me. you are still anxious to hear about our lives and to pray and care for us. for this i am so grateful! i really don’t deserve it!
i admit there are those times that i want to just close up shop and have this only be a personal blog, but writing for an audience is more fun for me. which adds to my frustration when i think no one is reading. but honestly, i know everyone else has a life to herself (sorry, rob, but you’re the only guy who reads lol) and your worlds do not revolve around me! i have not been great at keeping up with everyone i care about, and i do pray that you know i still love you and pray for you, even when i don’t show up as frequently as i’d like (hey, i was bad about this even before two kids! lol).
anyway i just wanted to clarify that you don’t need to go on a comment-spree just so i won’t delete you, because i’m not going to. if you comment, i want it to be because you feel comfortable to do so, or you feel like you have something to say. or that you have time to babble. any of those options would work. LOL.
i know lately i have talked about BMC a lot, and i will probably continue to do so. i have been wondering if that has been scaring everyone off. it is very important to me to get it off the ground and actually make money to help our family out. finances are a huge part of our problems, so i can’t help to think about how much we DON’T have. so to get BMC doing well, to get our finances in better shape, would make me so happy! and i think, if i keep mentioning it, maybe someone will finally be interested! lol. i happen to think jerry and i do good work, and our prices are lower than anyone else’s that i’ve seen.
anyway, that’s enough of that. just know you’re safe. you’re not going to be under the microscope. i’m not going to check logs to see who has or hasn’t been on anymore.
tonight jeremiah was looking at one of his puzzles. it has shape pieces, and under the pieces are pictures of objects shaped like the shape pieces (following me here?). well, under the circle is a pic of a clock. he pointed to it and said, “clock” i said, yep! and he pointed to it again, said “clock” again, then pointed to our clock. he went over to our clock and said “hi, clock! hi! i mi-mi!”. oh my goodness can you imagine my shock and joy at this - how cute is he? he introduced himself to our clock!! have you ever heard of anything so adorable?
earlier in the day, he was standing near me and i reached out to give him a hug and kiss. nothing new - he gets hugs and kisses ALL.THE.TIME. but he turned to me and said, “tank yoo mama!”. oh this boy knows how to melt his mama’s heart, i tell you!
know what? josiah will be 3 mos old in about an hour. can you BELIEVE it. sigh.
i weighed him today - he is 14 lbs and 24 1/8 inches. i was trying to find jeremiah’s 3mos weight but couldn’t find it. i’m sure it’s hidden somewhere tho. eta: jeremiah was 15 lbs and 24 inches. remember josiah was shorter when he was born…i wonder if he’ll be taller??
dear josiah,
you are such a little miracle and such a huge blessing to me. my itty bitty baby boy - mama’s dream, papa’s joy…somehow, i always knew i would have a second son. that’s a part of your song that i’ve had even before you were conceived…i always knew the joy i’d find in loving you. and it’s so true! you are a joy to have in my life. you are so sweet and for the most part, very even-tempered. you’re fun to talk with (i love your babbling so much!!) josiah, your huge smile just lights up my heart. i can feel the love you have for me just radiate! while i can hardly wait until you’re a bit older so you can play more and communicate more, i am soaking in this time when you are so small, sweet and just precious. every day brings something new to love about you! i love that you look so much like your papa, and so much like your bubby who looks so much like me! lol. i love how i see my dimple in your cheek when you smile big. i love how looking in your eyes reminds me of looking in your papa’s eyes. your eyes sparkle in the sweetest way. i love how you grab my hair, and how you love to hear me sing. i love that you are a paci-loving boy and have such a strong suck. i love everything about you, my sweet little son, and i’m so thankful for you.
i love you, josiah benjamin!!!!
love,
mama
