looking up for addie! keep on praying!

just popping in to request prayer. now jeremiah AND josiah have colds and both jerry and i are feeling it coming on too! UGH.
also the twins are probably going to be taken away from my sister…i might be able to take them, but HOW IN THE WORLD could i do it?? and am i selfish for not wanting to do it?! i think it would be much more than i could handle at this time…please pray about this too, for the boys as well as for my sis, as she loves them so much.
oh btw suzanne was able to come by today to bring me a pump and show me how to sling. THANK YOU SUZANNE!!! and it was great meeting ya!! her daughter magdalena is only a few days younger than jeremiah, and they seemed to get along great. except for when she accidentally bopped him in the mouth once LOL. i am going to sell my nojo sling and get a maya wrap one (this should please you manda! ) i just loved how josiah felt in it, and he also liked it. i guess it’s fitting that the ‘nojo’ sling is not liked by jojo?! lol. i know, lame. unfortunately, i didn’t get anything pumping. sigh. still waiting to try amanda’s pump and if it works well i will get one or just use hers until she needs it back.
God bless.

for those who are unaware, josiah was named after the godly king in the bible. i found a wonderful biography about him. his story is found in 2 chronicles and 2 kings. honestly i love the bible hero and the name is just gorgeous to me. i’ve always loved it. however, i didn’t have any idea my son would display such a monarch-like disposition.
yes, my son thinks he is king of the world. and he’s only been in the world for a bit over two weeks.
if he is sleeping, some of the time he can be content where ever he is. but often, he feels he needs to be held while he slumbers.
if he is awake, he is usually screaming his head off. if he is not screaming his head off while awake, there is almost always a nipple in his mouth; either mine or a bottle’s. he spends very little time awake just being content.
i am wondering if he has lactose intolerance like his bubby did, so i am going to slowly start giving him the lactofree formula, and lay off chocolate and milk around times i will be feeding him (which kills me - i like having a glass of ovaltine every night before bed). i love the little man more than life itself, but i admit his scream is wearing on me. i hope i find out what is causing it soon. he is too young to just be rotten, so there has to be a reason behind it! i want him to feel better!
something else about josiah that if it doesn’t mend soon i am going to ask about. when he breathes, sometimes he takes in a HUGE loud breath, it sounds like he’s trying to catch his breath. it doesn’t sound right to me. i asked about it at his 5 day check up and the dr said it was normal. but i don’t know how long it’s supposed to be normal. ?? how long can it go on and be ok?

jeremiah is a little bit sick. he went to church and nursery on sunday and monday morning he woke up with a stuffy, runny nose and a bit of a cough. poor guy.
he threw the biggest fit yesterday. he wanted to go out front and just wander, but i was still in my pj’s and josiah was sleeping inside, so no way. so he was screaming and hollering and just being horrid. he even tried to bite me. sigh.

i overdid it yesterday guys. i took the boys to kroger. by myself. for the first time. i wanted to just get it over with and say it can be done…but it went horribly. not as bad as it could have, mind you. jeremiah did great - he had his apples to munch on. josiah did well most of the time, but he screamed off and on for a while. i had to take him out of his carseat one time and just walk holding him, while pulling the cart along (if the stares and glares i got when he was screaming weren’t bad enough, you should have seen the ones i got for carrying him while pulling a cart…). why are people so rude? honestly, if i saw someone in my situation, i would ask if i could do anything to help, not stare and glare. UGH.

as for me, i have pretty much decided it’s baby blues with major stress and lack of sleep thrown in. i will keep an eye on things tho, and if things get worse or don’t change at all, i’ll be asking my dr about it. i think it’s the blues because sometimes it goes away - it’s not a constant thing.

this morning was my first morning with jerry working both jobs. which means i got no sleep last night and was up at 8. things went ok thankfully. jeremiah was in a wonderful mood and he and i had fun, even when josiah was awake and nursing. so that was a blessing. i’m aware that things can go downhill, but i think i am up to it. i have lived without much sleep before and i can do it again.

well i want to thank everyone for your continued prayers for me, our family, and my friend becca and her family, especially addie. you all rock.

God bless!!!

ETA: new pics added! including my new haircut pics!

today’s post on addie seems more promising! please keep praying tho!!!

not much new news really, but a new post from becca about addie. please continue to hold them in your prayers!
and sorry i didn’t have this up sooner - i haven’t been online for more than a minute all day until now, and i can’t even stay up long. i’ll post more tomorrow, but i overdid it today.
God bless.

i’m including a link to becca’s newest post on addie. please share it with those praying friends you know and pray PRAY PRAY.

my mom is here now so i could shower and to help me out a bit. i am just feeling really *down*.
please pray for my friend becca and her new baby! she was born yesterday, and has something like blood on the brain, and it seems no one knows what should be done to treat it. ?!?!?! please pray for her - addie is her name.
God bless

i honestly don’t have the strength or energy to type a lot right now. maybe tomorrow? but i just cannot believe my little baby is two weeks old today!!! he was weighed again today - 7lbs 10oz. so obviously our scale is not the same as the dr’s scale! lol.

please be praying for us. jerry is looking for another job, so he can have ONE job with decent hours and spend more time with us. please pray that he will find something soon. also a silent prayer for the two of us. i don’t want to go into detail, but because of the following, the two of us aren’t doing so hot…i am having some major baby blues - not sure if it’s full-on ppd yet so please keep me in your prayers. today has been a total mess - i found out i am not getting that awesome pump for free, and that makes me soooo sad. jerry says we will look online at ebay or something to get it, because he knows how important it is to me. but i was still so disappointed that i can’t get it for free. (for those wondering - WIC gave them out in the past, but now they only give them to moms whose babies are in the nicu or just sent home as preemies, who have latching problems, etc.) jeremiah is being a real handfull with josiah. he is normally sweet and kind with him, but sometimes it’s like he forgets we’re holding josiah and will try to throw things at us (like a book or something else he wants us to play with him) and it nearly hits or does hit josiah in the head! so far we have fielded things off so josiah hasn’t been hurt, but we’re having trouble on convincing jeremiah it’s not acceptable. i don’t know what to do, and being so hormonal only makes it worse. i don’t want to upset jeremiah to the point that he doesn’t want anything to do with josiah! but i want him to understand that he can NOT be so rough. it’s so hard because i know he is still a baby really. i don’t want to expect too much of him. i had honestly been trying to curb this throwing things for MONTHS because i didn’t want it to still be going on when josiah came…obviously it hasn’t been curbed! so those are the big prayer requests.

God bless. praying for a better day tomorrow…

eta: forgot to mention, i got my hair cut today. it’s above my shoulders! i will try to get a pic tomorrow…hopefully i’ll be wanting to smile more then??

today was josiah’s due date! it’s so hard to believe he’s been on the outside for nearly two weeks, and he wasn’t even due until today!! i weighed him this morning on our scale - 8lbs 6oz! and i imagine he would have weighed MORE than that if he hadn’t been born until today. wowsa!
i am so thankful for him. he is so amazing. even if things are stressful and i don’t get enough sleep and he cries to be nursed at the same time i’m trying to do something (like burn dinner), i would not change anything about him. i am so in love with the little man!!!
i have something to show you! the birth announcement is done!!! what do you think? i made it last night and today…
(click to enlarge)

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this is the pic that is enlarged on the announcement:
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i am pretty proud of it. the bunch of pics that i took are all pretty neat too. josiah reminds me of the twins in that one anne geddes pic (the twins with the rose).

i am so tired - i spent too much time working on the family photo. i had to merge two pics into one because there wasn’t a good one of all of us. sigh. and jeremiah ended up not smiling at all. he was totally grumpy! i am still in love with him too tho. he is so much fun and so amazing.

night and blessings!!!