well there are some new pics up at flickr!! my mom, jeremiah and i went to meet with my cousin and her daughter today. we played in the mall play-area. they are moving to hong kong on monday, and we wanted to see them before they left. i think the kids had fun, and we had a nice little chat. actually i listened mostly - i wasn’t feeling talkative at all, and i’m not sure why. i wasn’t feeling bad, just not chatty. ? anyway, most of the pics are really really cute.
it is so funny to watch jeremiah with other kids. he is so sweet, and he’s so interested in what they do. he likes to watch people. he likes to see what other people are doing. i like that about him. also, instead of going up to a kid and pushing him down, he will go up to a strange child and pat him on the back, like, hi, how ya doing bud? he is very gentle.
yesterday, he was reading his winnie the pooh FEELINGS book. he loves this book. and i learned yesterday just how much he loves it! he did all of the sound effects for it that we use, on each page. for instance, he said ‘heeheehee’ for pooh being happy, he said ‘hoohoohoohoo’ then ‘boi boi’ (boing boing) for tigger, he said ’shhh’ for piglet being shy, he said ‘oh, no’ for roo being scared, he said ‘oh’ for eeyore being gloomy (i’m sure he was going for ‘oh dear’ with that one ), he said ‘hmm?’ with his finger to his chin for owl being puzzled and he smiled at the end for everyone being loved by christopher robin. oh it was one of the most precious things i’ve seen, and he is a pretty precious boy, so i’ve seen a lot! i wished i had been able to video tape it.
later, at dinner, i spotted a rabbit outside. i turned his high chair around so he could see it. once he noticed it, he was soooo excited! he was doing his rabbit sign (a finger bouncing up and down - supposed to be two fingers; we’re still working on that! lol) and saying ‘boi boi’ and was so happy and thrilled! when the rabbit finally went through the fence to the next door neighbor’s yard, he said ‘oh noooooo’. i told him that bunny went bye bye and he would be ok. it took a few minutes for him to want to eat again.
last night when the pizza man came, kc ran out the front door. i couldn’t go after him because nate and jeremiah were right at my heels. so i waited. i told jeremiah kc was gone. he was soooo upset! he was bringing me all of kc’s toys, saying pitifully, ‘oh noooo, dog-dog!!!! oh nooooo!!!’ when kc finally came up the sidewalk, i went to get him, and he went right into his cage after being spanked. jeremiah was very upset with me, because he had benn so worried. sigh.
tonight, coming home from dinner, we saw a young robin. we assume he had something wrong with his wing, because he was running from us, but wouldn’t fly. jeremiah wanted to hold him soooo much! he would follow him and say ‘oh noooo’ like he knew he was hurt. we tried to entice the bird with bread, so we could put him in a box or something, but the stubborn thing would have nothing to do with us!! jeremiah was really sad when the bird finally went into the neighbor’s yard and we went inside.
he is such a tender, gentle, compassionate child. i know it’s strange to say that of one so young, but we really believe it’s true. he’s a special boy!!

well i am sooooo tired! hope to be by tomorrow to visit everyone. have a good night and God bless!!!!

PS there are also a few preggo pics!!! i’m 32 weeks, 1 day today!!! :D :D

i was going to post about how i was doing *ok* with this GD thing. it’s not fun, mind you. my fingers hurt, and sometimes i crave what i shouldn’t have (but i’m not falling into the cravings trap - woohoo for me! i haven’t had ONE piece of candy since last wednesday, and if you know my sweet tooth, you will applaud me!) but i am handling the diet ok. at least the CARBS part i am. the fat part is harder to deal with. it’s hard to have the amount of carbs and protein they want me to have and keep the fat content down. but i am trying.
before i talk about what i want to, i will explain gestational diabetes to you as if you know nothing about it. like i knew, before i had it.
i am to test my blood 4x a day. once in the morning when i first wake up, before i eat. this is called my fasting numbers. the other 3x are 2 hours after my big meals. for the past few days i was also supposed to test my urine first thing in the morning for something called ketones. thankfully, i had no ketones present. ok got it so far? if you want more info, lemme know.
my post-meal numbers have been great. they have to be under 130, and mine have been between 98 and 116. so kudos for that. my fasting numbers have not been so good. they should be under 96. they have not been under 96 one morning yet! the closest was two mornings ago, at 99. so i called the diabetes place to ask them what i should do. they said if it was their call, they would put me on insulin once a day. that since my after-meal numbers are so good, it’s not happening from what i am eating and it is a hormonal thing that my body can’t take care of on its own. it needs a bit of help. ICK!!! i am now waiting to hear back from my ob’s nurse to see what they want done. she said my dr will probably refer me to an endocrinologist, and he will probably put me on insulin. SIGH, ICK and BLAH.
NOTE: i DO have to be put on insulin, and i’m being referred to the endocrinologist. it may take up to 3 days to hear back from them.

so that’s where i am right now! please pray for me. i am willing to do anything for josiah, but i must admit this pregnancy has about done me in! if i didn’t have jeremiah to chase after and snuggle, i’m sure i would be wallowing in self-pity a bit more. but really, when you’re pregnant and have a toddler, who has time for self-pity??

other notes, which may be TMI, so cover your eyes:
i had contractions two days in a row. not like oh no let’s head to the er kind of contractions, but real contractions. i don’t remember them coming so soon last time, but i’m sure it’s a second-pregnancy kind of thing.
my back is KILLING me, and so are my joints. sometimes my joints get kind of ’stuck’ so i can’t get out of bed.
i am having more discharge. just the white kind, no blood. and not like flowing or anything, just enough to notice it more.
josiah really scared me today. i guess he had a really long nap but i don’t remember him ever being so still for so long. just in the past 10 minutes has he begun to act a bit more normal, with the kicks and turns and punches. i will try to accept it and chalk it up to him not having as much room, but it’s hard not to worry. as much as it hurts, and as much of a general ‘pain’ it is, i am SO THANKFUL when he kicks me with a soccer player’s kick.

if you’ll look on the flickr badge (the line of pics on the sidebar) you’ll notice more pictures. we got a new pool the other day, and put it up yesterday. it’s a tiny thing, but hopefully it will bring jeremiah much pleasure and joy. we had fun in it yesterday, after he got over the initial grumpies concerning it (yesterday was NOT a good day for our lil man, i must say!!! he was just generally not feeling great, and was clingy, teary, grumpy and sad most of the day. a lot of it has to do with the wretched teeth that will not come in!). also notice on the flickr badge that i have a pregnancy scrap layout posted on flickr.

well i need to eat something. God bless!

i wore a tank top and shorts. i still looked like a slut when i got wet! oh well.

jeremiah had a BLAST! and he did so well for his first time in the water!!! i wish he didn’t have tubes anymore…we didn’t want his head underwater because of them, but he really really wanted to get under the fountain. the only reason his hair got wet is because he slipped and fell in. that was near the beginning, and he still wanted to be in the pool, thankfully. i was really so proud of my little fishy! pics are at flickr. also, a short video.

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sorry i haven’t updated. i’ve been kind of busy, and haven’t had the time to write a full post, so i keep putting it off. i probably won’t even get done with it right now either, as nate is due to arrive any minute.

the class went ok. and it’s the only class i have to take - a one time four hour class. i learned how to take my blood with the accucheck pen. not fun. my fingers really hurt. but hopefully i’ll get used to it soon. i am to take my blood 4x a day - 1 before breakfast, and 3 others 2 hours after my big meals. i learned a new way to eat. i am counting my carbs in an interesting way - i get certain servings (1 serving of carbs is 15 grams) per each meal - breakfast, lunch, dinner, and three snacks. i am allowed up to 11 oz of protein per day, and 4 servings of fat (1 serving of fat is 5 grams). yeah, so interesting. so far it’s going OK but not great. mainly because my fasting levels have not been under 96 like they should be. they have been like 110 or 104. sigh. hopefully i can get this worked out. but my after meal numbers have been great.
this is not going to be easy, but you know, there are MANY more things in life that are worse. i was being such a baby about it before, but i’m really over it now. i haven’t had ONE piece of candy since wednesday. this is really good for me, as i’m a sugar fiend! i want to take care of myself and my baby, and i want to do what’s right. so i CAN and WILL get through this. and maybe, just maybe, i’ll be able to follow the plan even after josiah is born, so that i can live a more healthy eating lifestyle.

jerry and i picked up our new glasses today. i am not wearing mine right this second because i HATE what new glasses make me feel like…i just HATE it. which could be why it’s been 7 years since i had new ones….BLUSH. you will be quite surprised at how different i look in them. they are a MUCH smaller size than the ones i have (had) before.

tonight jeremiah and i are going to a pool party. and i don’t have a suit. i tried some on today but i looked like a SLUT. my breasts don’t fit right. so i guess i won’t be able to swim. i will be taking pics tho, so i hope jeremiah has fun!!

well gonna get going before nate gets here and KC wakes jeremiah up!!!

hugs and have a great day, everyone!!!

just wanted to post a few things that i have neglected to mention before they are out of my mind forever!!

let’s see…i mentioned the singing of ‘baby, baby’ to the tune of ‘daisy, daisy’…
i mentioned the ‘oh, no!’ clear as a bell…

the other day, when jeremiah and i were in kroger, he got to ride in the race car cart. he was moving the steering wheel and vroom-vrooming all over! i love it when he has fun.
when we were in the check-out lane, i was in front of the cart, pulling it backwards toward me. this means jeremiah and i were facing each other. well, he decided he wanted to pick up some candy. he chose a reese’s cup. i told him that, no, even if i were buying him candy, he isn’t allowed to have peanut butter yet, so no reese’s cup. i was able to reach it and put it back. then we moved forward in line a little. well, he decided to scan all the other ‘options’ of candy, but once again, the bright orange of the reese’s cup lured him in. he picked up another reese’s cup. i repeated the same speil, but this time i couldn’t reach it to take away. my big belly on top of the length of the cart was too much. so i just emphasized that mama was NOT going to buy that for him. well, he looked at me, he looked at the reese’s cup, and he looked to the left of him (i wasn’t sure what he was planning at first). then he tossed to reese’s cup onto the conveyer belt, and glanced at me with a semi-smirk, as if to say ‘oh, yes you ARE buying that for me, mama!’ i had to stifle a giggle because i was amazed at how he’d figured out it has to go on the conveyer belt to be bought! by this time, most of my stuff had gone through, so i was ready to pay. the lady behind me held up the reese’s cup. ‘is this yours?’ ‘no, he THOUGHT he was going to get it, but he was wrong.’ and she put it back for me. i got a near-withering, partly disappointed look from my toddler. oh it was a priceless moment. but you know what? he didn’t throw a fit about it. he didn’t whine, scream or have a tantrum. for that, i’m thankful. and i’m proud that he’s such a smart cookie!

yesterday, he bumped his foot on his horse. he has been coming to me to kiss his ouchies lately. he came to me, and said ‘aaawwww, me piggies’!!!!!!!! i said, ‘did you just say my piggies?’ and he lifted his foot to be kissed. HOW CUTE IS HE?!?!? so then i had to kiss his toes, and sing ‘this little piggy’ with him.

i thought there were a few more things, but of course they have slipped this pregnant mind! will add more if i think of them!

busy day tomorrow - nonstop from 8am till after 2pm!!! ugh!

God bless and lots of hugs!!!

as in, i failed the 3-hour glucose test.
i failed the first (fasting) by three points, and the second, right after the glucose, by five points.
i am not sure what this means. i was told i will be getting diabetic counseling…

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i was just called by the class scheduler.
oh WOW. i am sooo not looking forward to this. i have to go to a gestational diabetic class every week, and i have to get a glucometer, which i will check my blood with for every meal! EEK! i do NOT like getting blood drawn, and sticking myself sounds insane.

please pray for me ladies! i am not very good at limiting myself to what i eat (i always go with what i am craving, or what we have around the house)…which could have a part in this problem. i did the same with my pregnancy with jeremiah tho…

ugh. ugh. and another ugh.

i did find out that my score was not bad - that there was one lady who EVERY stick was over 200!! wow! so it’s not horrible…they just want to get it under control so it WON’T get bad. but i am beyond annoyed about it. i found out the class is a $50 co-pay, and the lancets are $20-$75 co-pay PER 30 day supply, depending on which brand i get. UGH UGH UGH!!!

oh and the classes are on wednesday. so guess what i have on my plate for this wednesday (jerry’s day off, so i won’t be able to see him much at all):
8-12 diabetic class. 12-? get my crown put in. 150-? regular ob appointment. and i am watching nate whenever i get home. YEAH fun times. i am so looking forward to wednesday.

i want august to come NOW.

today is kc’s fifth birthday. i still remember when he was a tiny ball of fluff and energy, when we picked him out of his litter. he was the favorite of the family’s children, and they sent us glares as we took him away. he was a rough and tumble little ball of energy - and i must say he still is! all boy! there are times that he drives me bonkers, but i love the little guy.
i bought him a can of dogfood (it’s a tradition - he normally eats dry dogfood, so every birthday i give him a can of dogfood mixed in with his regular food.) and those doggy ice cream treats. MMMMM! you know, dogs don’t know it’s not ice cream!
we went garage sale-ing today, and since it was kc’s birthday, we took him along most of the time. got quite a few deals, and the boys had fun! it was our addition’s community sale. which we were going to be involved in, but we still have a garage full of boxes. let’s not get into that and ruin a perfectly good post, k?

and my little boy is 17 months today. oh it’s just amazing. why does time fly so fast? it’s nice that it’s making the pregnancy go quickly, but why does my little boy have to grow older too?? last night, he started singing ‘baby, baby’ - a little tune that i sing during the reading of his big brother book. it’s to the tune of ‘daisy, daisy’. jerry and i are working on more lyrics. but it is SO PRICELESS to hear him sing it. have to try to record it! just today, he started saying moomoo correctly for a cow, neighneigh correctly for a horse, he said ‘oh no’ clear as day several times. he likes trying to practice the alphabet, and when he ‘reads’ a book, he points to the words, like we do.
i am really too tired to go into more details about him, but i am just amazed by him. he is such a sweet, caring, loving, precious little soul. and so smart! we are so thankful for him.

thank You, Lord, for my precious son!!! and thank You for my pup, and thank You for my precious unborn son as well. You have blessed me SO MUCH MORE than i could ever deserve.

it was NOT a fun ordeal, but i am back. i survived it.
and guess what? whoever made the appointment with me didn’t know what she was talking about. i COULD HAVE been drinking water the whole fasting time. yes, i’m serious. i am SO angry about that. not drinking water was the worst part of the whole thing.
anyway, it’s done and over with. now we must pray that i pass.

btw jannelle called and said the babies are going home with her today. while it’s wonderful they are doing better, we are very concerned for the life they will be living. so please continue to keep them in your prayers.

it’s been about half an hour since i’ve eaten or drank anything. i already feel parched. i’m going to bed in a sec so i don’t have to THINK about it!!!
please pray for me tomorrow, in between 915 and 1215!!!!! (see yesterday’s post, if you’re lost!)
night - love - blessings - hugs

i failed my glucose test. they called today to let me know.
so i have to do the three hour one this friday. i’m so disappointed. i just barely squeaked by passing the first test when i was preggo with jeremiah.
it is a fasting test; i have to fast 12 hours before (no water or anything at ALL), get pricked once, then take double the normal amount of that glucose stuff, then be pricked 3 more times.
not looking forward to it…will be requesting prayer on it probably tomorrow night.
anyone else have to take this, and pass fine?
UGHHHH.
at least i’m 30 weeks now, so if i have to do any major changes in my diet or anything, i won’t have long left to do it. but STILLLLL. WAAAAHHHHHHHH!

ETA: the preggo pics are up. click the flickr sidebar to see ‘em! (note the bare belly pics are view to those i’ve added to my flickr friends/family list. you gotta join, then add me to your contact list, then i’ll add you! that is, if you WANT to see the bare belly pics. MWUAHAHAHA ) also note: i used the auto timer on all those pics. jerry didn’t get to take them today. the ones from today that i shot aren’t that bad! but i hope he can take more tomorrow, for the scrap project.