jerry thinks it’s spiritual warfare or something. i can feel great (as good as i can feel) all week, then BOOM on sundays i vomit and have major problems….
jerry dragged me to church anyway today, and i’m glad he did, even though i felt horrible the whole time. it was great to see people again though. i haven’t been all month.
my grandma on my dad’s side died yesterday. we knew it was coming, so we weren’t shocked. but i’m still a bit shook up about it. we were never close or anything, since she lived in florida, but still, she was my only grandma left, and she was my family. we can’t go to florida for the funeral because i couldn’t handle the drive, and we can’t afford to fly. please pray for my family over there.
ok, i have a MAJOR prayer request for everyone. one of my dearest friends, zhou, who is from china, is being sent back to china. this is two months after ins told her that she was fine and legal to stay in the us. this is a horrible thing, because not only does she have two children who are american citizens, she has been adopted by an american, has married an american, and co-owns her own house with her husband, she has testified against the chinese government in court, so china despises her and wants her dead. this is not something that any of her friends are going to take lying down. it cannot happen. her precious babies (one just born two weeks ago, i believe i mentioned it) cannot be without their mama. the government has given her until july 13 to be ready to go, with only 55 lbs of luggage with her.
please, please, please, pray with me for a true miracle. we cannot and will not let her go. her babies names are mary and leah and her hubby is richard, if you want to pray for them too, they need it as well. we are all feeling very defeated, afraid, and in shock. imagine if someone you loved was being sent on short notice to a death sentence. if she does go, we will never see her again. please pray for all of us who are close to her as well, because we need to be strong for her, and her family.
i have not written major details because of her privacy and because i want to get this out quickly. if you want more info, please contact me.
please pass this prayer request on to others who can pray. we all know the Lord moves when His people pray.
on a joyful note, today i’m three months along!!! can you believe it? and doesn’t three months sound better than 12 weeks? tomorrow is my first ultrasound, and i’ll get to find out the actual due date and how many babies there are. we’re hoping for two, as you know!!!!!! and yesterday jerry and i picked out the paint for our baby’s room. it makes it seem so much more real. i looked for some color swatches to post but couldn’t find any. man i miss my scanner!!!!
i just had to end on a positive note, though right now i’m so upset about zhou…
God’s blessings,
jenn and jerry

well guess what my sweetie did for me this weekend?
he bought one of those pools, the 15×30 inch ones, and set it up for me. it’s all filled and ready to go. since i don’t have to go into work until 130 today, i’m going to go give it a try!!!! he is soooo sweet to me.
the neighbors asked if it was for kc (our dog - who incidentally HATES water LOL) and jerry said, no it’s for jenn - we’re pregnant! and they were very happy and congratulatory (sp?). they are an older couple with grandkids and stuff, and we’d told them before about how much we wanted children.
i missed church AGAIN yesterday. i was all ready to go, went to get my water, then had to throw up. i mean majorly. all i’d eaten was cherries and a piece of toast, but it was all gone. i felt horrible, and knew i couldn’t drive while i felt like that. i miss seeing my friends at church, and singing with everyone.
anyway, my hubby is just the best. i think i’m going to go shower so i can go swimming! woohooo! i wish the water was a LITTLE warmer though, cuz i know my leg hair is going to grow five inches while i’m in there. hehe. oh well.
oh, i’m thinking of putting a new song on. it’s kind of the themesong for this site. it’s called the dream never dies.
blessings,
jenn and baby

well i didn’t find out ANYTHING! i’m so disappointed…they tried for a heartbeat but couldn’t get it. i’m going for an ultrasound in a few weeks, on june 30. the dr was really really nice. but when we told him we WANTED twins, he said, ‘no, no you don’t.’ we said, ‘yes, yes we do.’ lol and he said when he has a patient who is pregnant with twins, he says, ‘congratulations. i’m very sorry.’ i was like, hmmmm. he said it immediately makes you a high-risk pregnancy, and no one wants to be high-risk. which i agree with, but this has always been a dream of mine, to have a boy and a girl twins! i know now that i will be very let down with one (though i’ll still love him or her to pieces). is this totally insane of me? i don’t want to be selfish or anything, and i want my child to have the full attention and love he/she deserves.
please be praying for some dear friends of ours from college, the marquezes, whose father just had a stroke. now i never met him myself, but from what i hear, he was the kindest, most loving man ever. he would always go up to total strangers and tell them how much Jesus loved them. now he can’t remember anything from the past, except Jesus and his immediate family. just pray for his healing, and for the healing of his entire family, since he was the rock in the family for so long.
anyway, if i sent you an email about boycotting stamps, please read the following (if i didn’t you can just ignore it):
you know, as i read this boycott, i thought, why would i send this out? i will never buy one of these stamps in the first place, because i would never support a religion that is opposing to my Lord and Saviour. but i sent it because i was thinking on emotions, and it seemed like the right thing to do. i do not believe muslims are evil people, just as i don’t believe other unsaved people are evil. they are just lost. and i don’t blame all muslims for the attacks because to do so would make me, a pro-life Christian, be held responsible for every idiotic act done in my Lord’s name. i know it is a select group of TERRORISTS who made these attacks. so it was hasty and stupid of me to just forward that out instead of praying about it first.
i’m sorry, guys, and i’m sorry for offending you. i am not a racist and i do not normally send out hate mail or discriminating mail.
i hope you’ll forgive me for being so stupid.
love,
jenn

today we are going to meet the obgyn and see if he’s who we’ll stay with. the nurse had told us he’s wonderful, but we have to see for ourselves.
i don’t know if it’s too early to do our first ultrasound or not, but i’m hoping they do one. i want to know really how far along i am. and also i would like to know if there are two babies or one.
today is our dog kc’s third birthday! he is still our little pumpkin, and our first child. we are so thankful for him!!! if you’d like to see his site, which hasn’t been updated in ages, click here. his blog is all messed up so it’s not even worth viewing.
well pray for us if you think of us! love and hugs,
jenn, jerry and baby (ies)

i went to the hospital today. my dr was concerned that with all the vomiting i’ve been doing, i might be dehydrated…i’ve still been throwing up once every hour or so all morning, up until one or two in the pm. so since i tried the phenergen (not pergonal! LOL i’m a dork) and it didn’t work for me, in fact it made it worse, the dr was concerned and sent me straight to the emergency room. i was there quite a bit, and on the drip for over an hour, then i had to wait around to see if the medicine did it’s work and i didn’t throw up again. well, it worked. it was strange how well i could feel it coming over my tummy, making it feel calmer. the dr prescribed pills of the same med for me, which are 25 bucks a pill!!! thank the Lord for insurance. i hope it works - i will try it tomorrow. the medicine is actually what they use for cancer patients during chemotherapy. it’s totally safe for the baby, otherwise i would never consider taking it.
after that i went to work until six.
it was a loooooongggg day. i’m off to bed now! love and hugs all!
jenn

to my husband, father and grandpa. unfortunately i am feeling horrible today, so we didn’t make it to church. oh, i did try the pergonal suppository yesterday, and it made me feel even worse. i was feeling nauseas non-stop, instead of off and on like normal, and i also threw up a lot more. so i’m not trying that again. i will be calling the nurse again tomorrow to see if there is anything else i can try.
other news: my friend had her baby! she was about two weeks early. but a nice size, totally healthy. she had her all by herself - the midwife didn’t get there in time! she is their second daughter. my friend thought it would be a boy because she carried her differently, and she was bigger, etc. but, no, a girl! what a nice father’s day gift!
jerry is out planting a blueberry bush. next we’ll buy a raspberry bush - i love raspberries, but they didn’t have any rasp. bushes at meijer when we went there.
so what do you think about the new layout? i’ve been working on it off and on when i feel ok. i think it’s so adorable, and so true - our baby is coming straight from the Lord in Heaven.
i hope everyone is having a great day.
love and hugs,
jenn

well my hours are still up in the air. on monday i’ll be working at 11. which is a little better than 10 but not much. yesterday and today were the WORST for morning sickness. i know it’s the same old thing…but WHEN will it end?!?! argh! it feels that i can’t even enjoy the pregnancy. i’m SOOOO praying the morning sickness will be over soon.
i go to the obgyn on wednesday. i’m wondering how it will go! i’m actually looking forward to it. i’m sure it’s way too soon for an ultrasound, but still.
well, i really miss seeing everyone around here. i wonder if everyone is scared away because of the mean people….
love,
jenn

my sister is missing. she ran away from work last night and no one has seen her since five pm yesterday. there is a history i won’t go into, but she is sixteen, but not a normal sixteen year old. still, she has never done anything like this before. the sheriff is already looking for her, and my brother and father looked all night for her. please pray for her, that she will be safe and not do anything stupid. please pray that we will find her soon.

UPDATE: just wanted to let everyone know that she is safe and sound. she was hiding out in a barn at her work. thanks for the prayers.

thanks,
jenn

well i’m waiting for a callback from the triage (special name for nurse) who will hopefully call in some new nausea medicine for me…i already have a medicine that i take at night for it, but it doesn’t last long. actually, early early this morning, when i woke up to use the restroom, my tummy was going bonkers, so it wears off sooner than i thought it did. but i really need something anyway for the rest of the day. i can’t keep anything down before 1, and sometimes even a little after that is pushing it. i’m going to buy some of those preggo pops to see if they help at all.
any thoughts about what i should get the papa to be for father’s day??? i have been looking around when i can (which hasn’t been often) and i can’t even find a decent father-to-be card. any ideas will be great! for some reason my usual creative nature isn’t kicking in. i actually have a good idea, but i can’t use it because i don’t have any pictures of him with his mom as a child. pretty sad, but there aren’t many pictures of him at all as a child.
well, sitting here for too long makes me nauseas all over again, so i need to go lie down for a while.
love and hugs!
jenn and baby

well, i am supposed to start working from 2 to 6 soon. it won’t start on monday, but we’ll see…i am looking forward to it. usually by around one most of the morning sickness seems to dissapate.
ok, we’re allowing comments again for a while. we’ll see how it works out, and if we have to password protect it, i’ll let you know!! i would like to avoid password protection if possible.
i wanted to say something to the cfers - i know that not all of you are mean, ignorant, rude and angry people. just as not all Christians go around killing people in God’s name, not all of you would post wicked comments on someone’s site for no reason. though i’d never heard of your group before (that i can recall) i don’t think badly of you as a whole. i just feel sorry for the people who have so little to do with their lives that they have to try to destroy my site. i appreciate those of you who have commented or emailed me nice messages. thanks a bunch.
i love all my friends so much! thank you for your prayers and continued concern for me.
i am hopeful that this sickness gets over soon. it’s getting more routine now, but still not easy. it’s almost like i throwup then go on. even though it takes a LOT of energy. it’s not like regular throwing up, that once you do it, it’s out of your system so it feels better. no, the horrible feeling stays with you no matter what. i’m sure many of you know this, but it’s new to me and my body.
i’m planning on garage saling this weekend if the rain holds off. i find great deals on onesies and little outfits. i’m also hoping to find some maternity clothes! my pants aren’t fitting me very much anymore. see, most of my work clothes were already a tad tight, but you know, you like to hide that, so i let them be tight. now i don’t want to have tightness around there, because it’s uncomfortable and i wouldn’t want to smoosh the baby (i know that’s just a mental thing but still). i have been overweight for a while anyway, so losing the weight like i have been doing is actually good for me i think.
i need to go get something to eat now.
love and hugs!!
jenn and baby