i just had to record these gems from josiah that all happened yesterday. there is NEVER a dull moment with him around. he is always thinking about something, and most often voices his thoughts. actually, i’m not sure if he ever keeps his thoughts to himself. LOL. but these are some of the cuter and funnier things he said yesterday.

“mama, i think i will be loving you forever”

“i’m done pooping.” i waited until he said it 3x before i went in (to wipe him), because he often thinks he’s done when he’s not…”so are you really done, buddy?” “no, i’m not.” head hanging down. “did you call me in here because you’re lonely?” “yeah, sometimes i get scared when i’m lonely. and i get lonely when i’m scared. so i want someone with me.” how profound. what a sweet, special guy i have.

“mama, flies don’t buzz do they? just bees right?” “no, joe, flies buzz too. the buzzing noise is made from bugs that flap their wings together really fast. you can only hear it on bigger bugs.” “but flies don’t sting right? just bees.” “nope, flies don’t sting.” “ok.”

“mama, you are a beautiful, lovey mama.”

oh man there was one more that was so funny and i can’t remember it now! i’ll have to add it if i remember.

I felt him a lot before, but it seems that now we know Jace is a boy, he is moving like crazy now!!! He barely rests at all now. I don’t know if it has anything to do with me feeling a bit better? Maybe it means the hormones that cause me to feel horrible also cause him to be drowsy? LOL. who knows. I’m still VERY exhausted and just soooo tired all the time. I have to take 2 two hour naps a day, or one 3 1/2 hour one. It’s pretty ridiculous. If no one is here for me to nap, I just fall asleep in the chair or on the couch. sigh. I guess this baby just takes a lot to bake. Plus taking care of three little boys is tiring as well…

I am getting REALLY excited about my fourth little prince. I can’t wait to meet him!!!!!!!!!!

The name we are planning on as of now is Jace Isaiah Paul. I’m already calling him Jace.

nother boy!!!!!! yes, we are due with our fourth son!!!!!!

nothing more to say yet, except the name is a little up in the air again, and yes, this is still our last biological child.

God bless!

Well i’ve done it for each pregnancy - this one is no different. I set up a baby poll at expectnet. Be a sport and put in your guesses. http://www.expectnet.com/games/baby-bless. Next Monday is the “big” ultrasound, so the poll will be closed after that!

my ticker is a little confusing. yesterday and today it says 17 weeks 6 days. i don’t know if it’s set to the wrong time zone or what. but i’m just saying i’m 18 weeks today. can you believe it?!

i find out june 1 “who” baby bless is. i have to admit i’m nervous about it. everyone knows this will be our last child, and everyone knows how much jerry and i would like to have a daughter, and the boys would like a baby sister. please pray for our attitudes. sigh.

we are going to be getting photopost for life-scrappers. i cannot WAIT. the gallery we use now is just a big pain and i think it deters people more than invites them. we are also looking into other store carts, to see what we can use besides zencart. i might end up sticking with it, but it doesn’t hurt looking, right?

speaking of scrapbooking places, i spent most of NSD weekend at digital candy, a wonderful community with lots of fun…and i found out yesterday they are going to close on the 15th. i’m so sad about this! there are some wonderful designers there and everyone is so sweet and so much fun. for any designers who might stop by here, if you’re interested, life-scrappers has a DT call running right now. for any DC ct members who will be looking for something to do, we have a CT call running as well! if you think life-scrappers would be a good fit for you, we’d love to have you join us!

for those of you who i’m friends with on FB, you may or not have heard about the fanpage i set up. it’s just to help get us noticed more, and also it will share when we are having sales or freebies and such, just like a friends status does. kinda cool, huh?  i also made up a short article-type thing about digiscrapping, for those of you who have no idea what i’m talking about. i posted my NSD layouts on facebook and people were curious about it.

well i was feeling better for a while. not good, but better than i was. then this past sunday something hit me hard and i was back to square one it seemed. i’m feeling a bit better right now, but i’m still not doing as well as i was. sigh. i thought maybe i had strep again, but the culture was negative. who knows what virus i have clinging to me now. please continue to pray for us!

i really need to get a video of jamin just talking - he is so cute. i was looking through old videos of the big boys and feeling guilty that i rarely video jamin. actually i rarely video at all much lately just because i feel horrible. hoping to feel more normal and motherly soon.

speaking of motherly, i hope everyone has a wonderful mothers day weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!

love you all.

it’s been a LONG time since i’ve posted! i feel very badly about that, since i really like to be able to look back on what was going on. i can’t seem to remember things the next week, let alone a few years later!

i have been doing much better. i mean, i’m not better, but i’m not vomiting all the time. officially i have lost 20 lbs since right before conception. i’m slowly gaining a little now. i’m actually eating and drinking and keeping things down. i’m hopefully done with the iv treatments, and am just sticking with the zofran pump, b6 and phenergan. i feel nauseaus pretty much 24/7, but thankfully i’m able to hold back vomiting most of the time. it’s like 1x in the morning, if at all, anymore. that is a VAST improvement!!!! i am able to laugh and hold the boys again, and jamin is acting like he loves me again. in fact, he says “i wuv woo” all the time to me now. and “up” when he wants me to hold him. his vocabluary is really bursting. he has the cutest little voice!

jeremiah and josiah have gone through quite a few problems lately, i think stemming from me being so ill, from being bounced to one caregiver to the next. jeremiah is having major attitude issues and josiah is just so crazy acting sometimes. i’m praying these things will get better soon. the two of them are growing up so much! they are always wanting to see “big boy” movies now…they’ve seen star wars and a few indiana jones movies. jeremiah loves to hum the indana jones them ALL THE TIME. it gets rather annoying after a while. lol. today he told me he wishes indiana jones was real, because he is such a great hero. awww! he’s so cute!! oh, another funny thing - josiah calls han solo “star wars indiana jones” lol. i think that is too cute!

i’m 14 weeks 6 days today. it seems like i should be MUCH farther along than this, doesn’t it?! jerry and i decided on a boy’s name the other night; JAKOB NEHEMIAH, so i finally feel “ok” with the probability that this baby is a boy. i just can’t handle it when i don’t have a name for a baby. it’s very odd, i know, but even though i sincerely want a girl this time, since i have a name for a boy, i’m fine with it. i’m nuts, i know.

the other night i had a dream that i’m carrying twin girls. i know, nuts, i told you! it was rather funny. i guess in the previous ultrasounds the dr had done, one of the babies had been hiding behind the other. pretty sneaky. and so entirely impossible, since twins don’t even run in our families at all. just a dream!!!

i wanted to make sure to post that jerry has been doing so wonderfully lately. he has apologized for being insensitive and mean, and is just working extra hard at being sweet and supportive. i still know how hard it is for him, but knowing he is with me is so nice!!!! i just had to put that in, because i wouldn’t want anyone to think that he’s continuing to be a jerk.

i have been pretty discouraged about digital scrapbook designing. i just don’t know if i’m cut out for it. i still love making things, but it’s nearly impossible to get people to buy anything. i guess only the big name people deserve a chance at sales. and it’s also impossible to get anyone to want to sell at my store! i have the faithful gals who are sticking with me, but two ladies had to leave. i just get really discouraged with it, not knowing if it’s the right thing to be doing or what. please be praying with me about this.

well, i’m off to take a nap. mom is here taking the boys on a walk, and the rush of fatigue just hit me hard.

please continue to pray for our little family!!

i was just reading old posts, from the time i was pregnant with jamin. they were very similar. i was in the same situation then. just as miserable. i don’t know, it’s possible it’s worse this time. it sure feels like it. it was about 16 weeks that i seemed to turn the corner with his pregnancy. i pray that happens with this one too. i’m nearly 12 weeks now, and 4 more weeks doesn’t seem that bad, in the grand scheme of things. it was funny to read that i was SURE we weren’t having any more kids after jamin. lol.

right now i still have the zofran pump all the time, and i also have an iv hooked up for hydration. i feel a little better with that, but i still don’t feel great. going into the kitchen still sends me vomiting. it’s also really hard to do anything at all (even if i had the energy) with the boys with wires all over your body, and an iv to drag around. the stairs are really fun.

i’m really sorry i’m so depressing anymore. i’m honestly so depressed that i don’t even want to post anything, but i want there to be something written about this pregnancy.

i feel baby bless moving a lot. i’ve been trying to remember to rub my tummy and speak to baby, because i just feel so sick i forget WHY i’m so sick. i love this baby so much. i do not want to resent him/her in any way.

this IS our last baby this time. it is. 4 is it. i honestly could not go through it again. i love each of my babies so much. i would do anything for them. it’s not fair to them or to my hubby to put myself through this again.

please keep praying for us. it’s a real struggle to get through each day. the church is helping, but there are still lots of gaps that need to be filled. pray specifically for my spiritual and emotional health.

love you all!

i really like this site, and this links directly to info for friends and family of HG victims.

http://www.helpher.org/family/

i just got a call from the home health provider, and the insurance is covering 100% of the zofran pump!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please send a praise up to God for His provision!!!!!!!!